It's been awhile since I've posted. I haven't been up to posting I've been sad, emotional, grumpy ect ect. Many things have happened my second nephew was born on April 30, 2012 @ 9:34 am. So that makes me an Aunt to two wonderful little boys. I'm excited but I'm jealous and sad at the sametime. I know that is not something that I'm proud of but it's how I feel I want it to be me. I want a baby I miss my babies. I hate mother's day grrr everyone saying happy mother's day and I have to say thanks and then the tears oh the tears there were many of them. I've also started to sell Thirty-One. All the money that I make from selling will go to our adoption fund.

                                                         Noah James

 

Both of my nephews Eddie and Noah

 

So I haven't posted since the update of getting the IUI done. Well I'm not pregnant really wish I could say that I was. I got my period on Thursday night/Friday morning.  I went today for my cycle day 4 blood work and ultrasound. Well I had to get stuck four times until we finally got blood both of my arms are already black and blue. I bruise very easy which sometimes always a good thing. So about 1:45 I got a call from the doctor's office. The nurse asked how I was and then she told me I have some bad new. My heart sank she told me that I can't start the shots that I reordered because I have two very large cysts on my right ovaries. She said rest this cycle and we can try again next cycle.  So store the shots in the fridge.  On to some other things. Easter was great we went to church. I made dinner for the first time for Jeremy's mom and step dad. We missed his sister since couldn't come home from school because of a test she had to study for.  I made a whole 15 pound ham, green bean casserole, homemade mac and cheese, rolls, scallop potatoes an apple pie and raspberry crisp with walnuts. After dinner we took the Easter basket we got for Little Eddie and I made on for our new nephew Noah who should be here anytime. Little Eddie was so excited. He had such a sugar rush from all the candy that we ate and boy was it good. 

Well the IUI went well painful but well. The doctor told me that my body responded to the Gonal-F shot very well. Since I have uterine didelhys I had 3 follicles on the left and 3 on the right side.  Since my left side is small and underdeveloped the did the IUI on the right side. We were told that is a good chance for multiples. WOW wouldn't that be something. We were told to wait 2 weeks to test. So again I'm on the 2WW. Oh how I dread that. But I'm hoping and praying that this time it will be worth it. So again prayers appreciated

One Year, Two Years and more

Where do I begin yesterday was a year since I lost Lucy the last time I was pregnant. How can a year go by so fast. Well it did and I can't change that, it will happen again and again. I went to the RE again yesterday got another round of blood work and another ultrasound. Both came back great. The nurse called and said no more Gonal-F shots and onto the Trigger shot.  When my order was delivered and I opened that box last week and saw the trigger shot needle I thought on no look at that needle. But when Jeremy gave me the shot it was just like the shots I've been getting all week.  So Saturday at 9 am is my IUI. I'm nervous, scared, and excited all at the same time. Just hoping and praying that this works.  So today is two years ago today that I lost Baby H.  Two years where did that time go? I can see you in my  mind with strawberry blonde curls and daddy's smile. Prayers appreciated :)

Just a little update the shots are going well. However I'm black and blue all over my belly. I went today for another round of blood work and an ultrasound. Both came back very good.  I have to get another shot tonight and go back tomorrow morning for an set of blood work. Since we are having and IUI done I'm guessing they will tell me when that is going to happen at tomorrows appointment. Also a little well not so little thing that happened today when I went to the RE I was told that I owed 1,700.00 for the IUI and I was shocked. Someone from the office was to call me and tell me that but they didn't so they are letting us pay in installments thank god. No all I need is some prayers that this is the cycle that it works.

Well the first shot wasn't that bad. The needles aren't that big which is good. I had to have Jeremy give me the shot. So we cleaned the area on my stomach and he loaded the pen with the serum and he was like you ready and I was pushing me and he like you can't do that hold onto the doorway.  So wham and it was done. It burned a bit but that is to be expected since the pen is kept in the fridge.  Plus the nurse that it's like that until it gets into the skin and my system.  So I guess its not all that bad.

Needles and Shots

Well our journey begins. By this I mean that we are starting our shots this cycle. I will be starting them tomorrow after I see the RE to have my day 4 blood work and an ultrasound.  I'm super nervous about this yes I have 2 tattoos and I'm very afraid of needles. The nurse told me that getting an IV hurts worse than what the shot are going to feel like. We go to choose between Follistim and Gonal-F. We did some research and chose to do Gonal-F. We got the pre filled pens. The UPS man delivered a giant box today. In the box was the a sharps  box, alcohol wipes, Gonal-F pens, a trigger shot, and progesterone suppositories and a DVD.  Now looking at all this stuff that I took out of the box I was like holy moly. I texted Jeremy a photo of all the stuff and all he said was that looks serious. I will have more to update as the week goes on. Here is a photo of what came out of the box! Prayers greatly appreciated