Thursday, September 22, 2011
So I went for my SHG today Oh the pain but it was worth it. The doctor was very happy with the way my surgery turned out and the healing as well. In his words it's beautiful if I do say so myself. It was hard for me not to laugh. I love him he is totally great. Well the SHG turned out great too and everything is fine. AS for my FSH levels and blood work that I had done on cycle day 3 all came back normal Praise GOD he is great. So no drugs for now YAY that means no shots for now YAY!!! So in the short of things we get the green light to TTC. I'm super excited, scared and worried all at the same time. If we aren't pregnant by January we need to go back and talk about drugs and see what is next. Also on another note I'm so excited for my friend she had her baby this morning and he is perfect chubby cheeks and a redhead. I can't wait to meet him. I can't wait for our turn. All I have to say is GOD is good.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
As Thursday gets closer and closer I'm having alot of anxiety. I'm going for my SHG hopefully the last one fingers crossed and we will get the result of my blood work that I had earlier this month considering my FSH level and my ovarian reserve. I'm praying for great results. Then we will know if we get the green light to TTC. I've been driving myself totally nuts worrying about this that I've actually gotten hives. Everyone is telling me that it will be fine but they just really don't get the whole thing unless you have been through what I have and other girls that I know. Unless you have experienced the loss of a baby in anyway you don't get it. I belong to a club that nobody wants to be apart of. But I'm so privileged to have the support of some wonderful people that know exactly how I feel and what I'm going through. I love you all for that. I really don't know where I would be without you. You are all strong beautiful women. I'll also be praying for one of my good friends and you know who you are as she gets induced tomorrow to have her rainbow baby.
Monday, September 12, 2011
First of all I want to apologize to anyone if I offend you but I have to get this out. I've been trying to write this for two days now. So where do I begin. We have game night every week with my brother and my sister in law. We switch houses and take turns making food. So this week it was at our house. So we are having dinner and my brother says to me your gonna be an aunt again(my mouth drops open). WHAT?? Of course I said congrats but inside I'm dying I actually wanted to run into the bathroom and cry and cry. So my SIL says I didn't want this I really didn't want anymore children. Now I'm thinking to myself as I'm looking at Jeremy how could she be saying this and we are going through what we are going through. She has no clue what it is like to be me and what babies and at this point(losing 3) and still no baby and you have a happy healthy little boy and one on the way how dare you. I mean if you really didn't want anymore kids then you should have used some form of birth control. Which they don't use anything. Well duh!! it will happen if you don't well for most people. I'm happy for them because I wanted another nephew or niece but at the same time I'm so jealous and just really do not know what else to say. I WANT a baby I WANT it to be MY TURN!!!!! so on another note I went for hopefully my last blood work this morning after working an 8 hour night shift(yuck). I also scheduled my hopefully last SHG. So we shall see. Lots of prayers appreciated.
Monday, September 5, 2011
|Playing with the water table|
|Climbing the slide|
|Putting on Uncle Jeremy's shoes|
|pretending his toy box is a car|
|See the bus|
|checking it out|
|Driving the bus|