I feel like I'm losing my mind. I've been crying and crying because I got my period again. All I want is a baby and that's all I can think about and I mean all I think about. I just really want it to be my turn and I actually get to bring a baby home. I just want to start a new chapter in my life. I see all of my friends and family with babies and toddlers and I want that. I little baby that has my hubby's eyes and smile and mommy's hair. I just feel lost about this whole thing I mean I go to the doctor to start shots and I then something else is wrong it's like I can't win for losing. I have people telling me it will happen don't worry but I am worrying. What if this is not meant for me. Then what? How do I move on not being a mommy. I love being an aunt but its not the same. It's the second best job in the world next to being a mommy. Sorry for rambling
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Well since my last post I have learned that my thyroid is acting up and I now have to take Synthroid. I have to take the pill in the morning with a full glass of water and I can't eat anything for at least 1/2 hr to 1 hr. I so take Zantac for heartburn and I can't take that for 4 hours after I take the Synthroid. Which is sometimes hard because I sometimes have heartburn all the time. Since my last post I talked about having to set up a conference call with my RE to go over results of my SHG and my blood work. The call is set up for March 12 @1130. I'm sad that I have to wait that long but I'm on a cancellation list just in case. I will also have to wait to start my injections to since I started the synthroid. That sucks!!! I just want to start this next step. On another note we had a very nice Valentine's day dinner at Pepperwood Grille. This has been our 13th Valentines day together and it just keeps getting better I love him more and more everyday I'm looking forward to many many more.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
I went for my SHG today. I must say that I really do not like them and hopefully this will be the last one! Since I have uterine didelphys he has to inflate both sides of my uterus and let me tell you it hurts like hell. He said that everything looks great but he will have to go over it in detail. I have to have a conference call with him to go over the results. Then he will tell me the amount of injections that I will have to take.