The little reminders

 

It's the little reminders that keep me sane somedays. I was weeding my flowerbed and saw this. 

Beach trip

Well we went to the beach and had a great time. We went with my brother and sister-in-law and my nephew. We had a blast. Until it was that I realized that I missed my babies. Spending all the time with my nephew for a week straight all day and all night listening to him say Nannie or my nannie that's what he calls me. I think its so sweet.  But when I was with him all week people kept say oh your baby is so beautiful but I had to keep saying thanks be he is my nephew.  This morning it was different waking up and not hearing Nannie up.  But it made think...What if?  I so badly want to here mommy. But that isn't in my cards at the moment. I get my surgery in 8 days hope this works for us.  I need this to work so badly. Enjoy the photos I have shared. Will update again soon:)

So it's 25 days until the surgery. I'm so excited and scared at the same time.  This is going to change alot this could be good or bad. I'm trying to stay positive  but sometimes that is hard for me to do.  Maybe I'll get some relaxation and some peaceful thinking next week when we go to the beach. The beach is one of my favorite places to be. You really don't have to think there you can just basically  be there. I have recently be see 3 little butterflies outside around my lilies almost everyday. This give me some peace as strange as that sounds.