So it's 25 days until the surgery. I'm so excited and scared at the same time.  This is going to change alot this could be good or bad. I'm trying to stay positive  but sometimes that is hard for me to do.  Maybe I'll get some relaxation and some peaceful thinking next week when we go to the beach. The beach is one of my favorite places to be. You really don't have to think there you can just basically  be there. I have recently be see 3 little butterflies outside around my lilies almost everyday. This give me some peace as strange as that sounds.