Tomorrow is the day we go back for our check up since I've had the surgery. To tell you the truth I'm so scared. Scared in so many ways that I can't explain them all.  I afraid to get pregnant again but I want that so much it scares me for the simple fact is I really don't want to be let down again. I know that my doctor can't say this won't happen again. But that would be to simple. So wish me luck and I'll update more tomorrow